I didn't decide what to do for my new year challenge. I didn't really decide anything. I still have a cold that has sort of held on and made my whole day tired and slower than usual. So 2019 started with a lack of motivation and energy. I did a lot less than I wanted … Continue reading January 1: 2019? Okay.
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December 29: Chat Pack for Kids
Annika got a "Chat Pack for Kids" in her stocking. It's basically a box with a bunch of cards with questions to ponder. She's been asking me questions for about an hour now. She loves to ask questions and answer them too, so it was a great gift. Right now she is asking about what … Continue reading December 29: Chat Pack for Kids
December 22: break
The stress melted away a little bit today; even though there's still plenty on my mind, I felt relieved to have more than two days to relax. I know we have a lot of things to do this week, but I hope we have a few days where there are no responsibilities or expectations. The … Continue reading December 22: break
December 21: Happy Solstice
The longest night of the year is meant to be celebrated by candles to light the darkness and roaring bonfires to keep us warm. Today, I got a bag of mandarin oranges and some donuts for my high school kids (oranges are kind of like the sun, and hey, we can all use the vitamin … Continue reading December 21: Happy Solstice
December 16: motivation
A lot of time, my motivation for doing things comes from other people. I'm not especially well motivated from within, but if people ask or push me to do something, then I generally will do it. Annika has been my sole motivator this weekend and entire season. I've been tired and not wanting to do … Continue reading December 16: motivation
December 12: not giving up
Everything in me wants to give up on things right now. Maybe it's the string of cloudy, gloomy days, or maybe it's the short days, or maybe it's that resources are tight while needs are high, but I'm way off my game. I'm forgetting things more than usual, I'm hyperfocused on things that aren't helpful … Continue reading December 12: not giving up
December 11: brain overload
My brain has been rushing a lot lately - like, my thoughts are flying through my mind at such a fast speed that I can't really keep up with them. They are pretty random lately, too. More random than normal. For example, if I've done anything awkward or embarrassing or "wrong" to any of you, … Continue reading December 11: brain overload
December 10: dramatic readings by 9 year olds
My daughter is reading her picture books to me as dramatically as possible. Right now, she is reading Pig the Pug books to me with more energy than seems possible. I wish I had that kind of energy ever, let alone at 9:45 at night. She has great potential as a speech team member in … Continue reading December 10: dramatic readings by 9 year olds
December 6: Taking meds
I take medication for depression and ADHD. These two conditions are comorbid in a lot of people, even though there hasn't been causation shown either way (as far as I know). I have been had depression for as long as I can remember, but it got really bad after I was pregnant the first time … Continue reading December 6: Taking meds
December 1: Forgetting the Squo
This weekend was debate JV Novice State. I knew this, not because I spent the week struggling to stay alive with the trimester ending and coaching for JV/Nov, but because I saw the posts of friends on social media. I had kind of forgotten, but the posts brought back a flood of thoughts and feelings, … Continue reading December 1: Forgetting the Squo
Adventures in Distraction 