I'm sitting outside with Perry the dog, finally taking some time to sit in the quiet. I've started this blog post about seven times now, not really sure how to begin. I haven't written here in ages, after writing every single day for an entire year, just to see if I could. I have a … Continue reading Life in the Time of Corona
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January 1: 2019? Okay.
I didn't decide what to do for my new year challenge. I didn't really decide anything. I still have a cold that has sort of held on and made my whole day tired and slower than usual. So 2019 started with a lack of motivation and energy. I did a lot less than I wanted … Continue reading January 1: 2019? Okay.
December 29: Chat Pack for Kids
Annika got a "Chat Pack for Kids" in her stocking. It's basically a box with a bunch of cards with questions to ponder. She's been asking me questions for about an hour now. She loves to ask questions and answer them too, so it was a great gift. Right now she is asking about what … Continue reading December 29: Chat Pack for Kids
December 22: break
The stress melted away a little bit today; even though there's still plenty on my mind, I felt relieved to have more than two days to relax. I know we have a lot of things to do this week, but I hope we have a few days where there are no responsibilities or expectations. The … Continue reading December 22: break
December 19: I’m upset
I'm just kind of pissed off and things are setting me off and I just need to be left alone for a while. My guts have been sore since I had some unhealthy food the other day and I'm both annoyed by my sore guts and annoyed that I can't eat junk food anymore without … Continue reading December 19: I’m upset
December 12: not giving up
Everything in me wants to give up on things right now. Maybe it's the string of cloudy, gloomy days, or maybe it's the short days, or maybe it's that resources are tight while needs are high, but I'm way off my game. I'm forgetting things more than usual, I'm hyperfocused on things that aren't helpful … Continue reading December 12: not giving up
December 11: brain overload
My brain has been rushing a lot lately - like, my thoughts are flying through my mind at such a fast speed that I can't really keep up with them. They are pretty random lately, too. More random than normal. For example, if I've done anything awkward or embarrassing or "wrong" to any of you, … Continue reading December 11: brain overload
December 6: Taking meds
I take medication for depression and ADHD. These two conditions are comorbid in a lot of people, even though there hasn't been causation shown either way (as far as I know). I have been had depression for as long as I can remember, but it got really bad after I was pregnant the first time … Continue reading December 6: Taking meds
November 21: Better
If you would have told me on Monday that I would leave school on Wednesday feeling *good* about things, I would have laughed in your face. But here we are. Teaching can give me metaphorical whiplash: one day can be terrible and I leave feeling like I'm the worst teacher in the world, the next … Continue reading November 21: Better
November 20: Food and the Body
I have been really careful about what I've been eating for the past couple months. This has meant a lot of changes in how I feel, how my clothes fit, and my relationship to food. I feel better, I have more energy, I know I am being healthier. But. Today I was really hungry and … Continue reading November 20: Food and the Body
Adventures in Distraction 