I'm just kind of pissed off and things are setting me off and I just need to be left alone for a while. My guts have been sore since I had some unhealthy food the other day and I'm both annoyed by my sore guts and annoyed that I can't eat junk food anymore without … Continue reading December 19: I’m upset
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December 18: repetitive
I feel like I get really repetitive here sometimes. I have a few topics that always seem to be spinning in my mind: my physical health, my mental health, my kids, my job and those kids, the need sometimes, and sleep. That's about it. Lately I've been so tired in the evening that I'll be … Continue reading December 18: repetitive
December 17: last Monday of the year
Today was the last school Monday of 2018. I know that's a small thing to celebrate, but it's also awesome to think about. This year has gone by slow in some ways, but really fast in others. It's kind of weird to think about it. This school year has been challenging because of a lack … Continue reading December 17: last Monday of the year
December 16: motivation
A lot of time, my motivation for doing things comes from other people. I'm not especially well motivated from within, but if people ask or push me to do something, then I generally will do it. Annika has been my sole motivator this weekend and entire season. I've been tired and not wanting to do … Continue reading December 16: motivation
December 15: the Ides of December
It's actually not the ides of December, because I guess they were on the 13th. It doesn't make sense to me why they would be the 13th. I thought it was the 15th of every month. I guess the Romans didn't count their months from beginning to end in a chronological order; instead, they counted … Continue reading December 15: the Ides of December
December 14: still dizzy, but ignoring it
I am still having vertigo but I'm pretending not to. It feels basically like I'm drunk, but with none of the positive feelings, just the room spinning and me feeling like I can't stay upright without swaying. My middle schoolers didn't notice at all, but the high school kids picked up on it pretty quickly, … Continue reading December 14: still dizzy, but ignoring it
December 13: so dizzy
I fell asleep at about 4:30 and only got up to eat at about 6:30, then come back to bed. I'm super-dizzy for some reason; I can barely stand up. I just woke up now at 2 am and realized I hadn't written, so I wanted to make sure I got on and got a … Continue reading December 13: so dizzy
December 12: not giving up
Everything in me wants to give up on things right now. Maybe it's the string of cloudy, gloomy days, or maybe it's the short days, or maybe it's that resources are tight while needs are high, but I'm way off my game. I'm forgetting things more than usual, I'm hyperfocused on things that aren't helpful … Continue reading December 12: not giving up
December 10: dramatic readings by 9 year olds
My daughter is reading her picture books to me as dramatically as possible. Right now, she is reading Pig the Pug books to me with more energy than seems possible. I wish I had that kind of energy ever, let alone at 9:45 at night. She has great potential as a speech team member in … Continue reading December 10: dramatic readings by 9 year olds
December 8: exhausted
The sun hasn't been out in ages and it seems to be getting to me. Tonight I laid down and promptly began to sleep... and dream about weird things: I dreamt I was pregnant again, I dreamt I was stuck in space (that was no doubt thanks to the new Avengers trailer). All of this … Continue reading December 8: exhausted
Adventures in Distraction 