The stress melted away a little bit today; even though there's still plenty on my mind, I felt relieved to have more than two days to relax. I know we have a lot of things to do this week, but I hope we have a few days where there are no responsibilities or expectations. The … Continue reading December 22: break
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December 19: I’m upset
I'm just kind of pissed off and things are setting me off and I just need to be left alone for a while. My guts have been sore since I had some unhealthy food the other day and I'm both annoyed by my sore guts and annoyed that I can't eat junk food anymore without … Continue reading December 19: I’m upset
December 12: not giving up
Everything in me wants to give up on things right now. Maybe it's the string of cloudy, gloomy days, or maybe it's the short days, or maybe it's that resources are tight while needs are high, but I'm way off my game. I'm forgetting things more than usual, I'm hyperfocused on things that aren't helpful … Continue reading December 12: not giving up
December 11: brain overload
My brain has been rushing a lot lately - like, my thoughts are flying through my mind at such a fast speed that I can't really keep up with them. They are pretty random lately, too. More random than normal. For example, if I've done anything awkward or embarrassing or "wrong" to any of you, … Continue reading December 11: brain overload
December 6: Taking meds
I take medication for depression and ADHD. These two conditions are comorbid in a lot of people, even though there hasn't been causation shown either way (as far as I know). I have been had depression for as long as I can remember, but it got really bad after I was pregnant the first time … Continue reading December 6: Taking meds
November 12: this world is too much today
Everything is so heavy: the fires in California, the terrible loss of life, the needless brutality from the local to the international, the news of audio from the Khashoggi murder, our crazy-ass idiot president, the insanity of people not wanting every vote to be counted in states where elections are very close, an entire town … Continue reading November 12: this world is too much today
November 5: darkness
When I left school today, it was dark. Not dim, not dusk. Dark. I used to love fall back because I love to sleep, but now, I'm annoyed with the entire concept of time in general and I just want to hibernate. Instead I'm going to take vitamin D pills whenever I remember them and … Continue reading November 5: darkness
October 28: guilt
I'm stressing out about how I didn't get done what I wanted to get done this weekend. I had to leave school earlier than I usually would (by hours) because the debate tournament started. That meant that I wasn't able to get my weekly planning done on Friday before leaving, which threw me off. Then, … Continue reading October 28: guilt
October 9: Little things, big impact
Today was overall a good day. I had some amazing conversations with my 7th graders about a story we read, and I finally got a kid who is clearly depressed (for lots of good reasons) to genuinely smile and laugh. I am having a good time with my Legends class learning about the "monomyth" and … Continue reading October 9: Little things, big impact
October 5: Whirlwind Year
This morning, a memory jumped up on Facebook: a year ago, I posted publicly that I had accepted a job at Roseville and would be leaving Forest Lake that month. It was the hardest decision I have made in my career. At that time, I believed it was the right choice and this year has … Continue reading October 5: Whirlwind Year
Adventures in Distraction 