We are in the middle of our annual Mystery Science Theater 3000 movie marathon on New Years Eve - it's part of the tradition we accidentally stumbled upon quite a few years ago. We have a smorgasbörd with smoked fish, fancy cheese, bread, fruits, veggies, and treats and watch MST3K. The first year we did … Continue reading December 31: Peace
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December 22: break
The stress melted away a little bit today; even though there's still plenty on my mind, I felt relieved to have more than two days to relax. I know we have a lot of things to do this week, but I hope we have a few days where there are no responsibilities or expectations. The … Continue reading December 22: break
December 21: Happy Solstice
The longest night of the year is meant to be celebrated by candles to light the darkness and roaring bonfires to keep us warm. Today, I got a bag of mandarin oranges and some donuts for my high school kids (oranges are kind of like the sun, and hey, we can all use the vitamin … Continue reading December 21: Happy Solstice
December 19: I’m upset
I'm just kind of pissed off and things are setting me off and I just need to be left alone for a while. My guts have been sore since I had some unhealthy food the other day and I'm both annoyed by my sore guts and annoyed that I can't eat junk food anymore without … Continue reading December 19: I’m upset
December 12: not giving up
Everything in me wants to give up on things right now. Maybe it's the string of cloudy, gloomy days, or maybe it's the short days, or maybe it's that resources are tight while needs are high, but I'm way off my game. I'm forgetting things more than usual, I'm hyperfocused on things that aren't helpful … Continue reading December 12: not giving up
December 6: Taking meds
I take medication for depression and ADHD. These two conditions are comorbid in a lot of people, even though there hasn't been causation shown either way (as far as I know). I have been had depression for as long as I can remember, but it got really bad after I was pregnant the first time … Continue reading December 6: Taking meds
December 2: new beginnings
Tomorrow is the first day of the new trimester. It's kind of weird because I'm getting only two new classes; my middle school classes stay the same. I'll get new Composition students tomorrow, though, which is exciting and anxiety-provoking at the same time. I wish I had a little more time before the new trimester … Continue reading December 2: new beginnings
December 1: Forgetting the Squo
This weekend was debate JV Novice State. I knew this, not because I spent the week struggling to stay alive with the trimester ending and coaching for JV/Nov, but because I saw the posts of friends on social media. I had kind of forgotten, but the posts brought back a flood of thoughts and feelings, … Continue reading December 1: Forgetting the Squo
November 11: another weekend over
Sad. Sunday night blues are kicking my butt. I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want to get up tomorrow. I just want another day to relax. This is the first fall I've been able to enjoy my weekends in 15 years. Coaching debate took over half of every weekend, which left … Continue reading November 11: another weekend over
October 28: guilt
I'm stressing out about how I didn't get done what I wanted to get done this weekend. I had to leave school earlier than I usually would (by hours) because the debate tournament started. That meant that I wasn't able to get my weekly planning done on Friday before leaving, which threw me off. Then, … Continue reading October 28: guilt
Adventures in Distraction 