No matter what, I can never seem to get ahead. I had an epic grading session over the weekend, but I still ended up staying to work until 6 pm, and I still feel like I’m behind. Just when I feel like I’m getting caught up, I get another email or realize I have another set of assignments to read and I can’t get ahead.

It sucks because I want to read my Composition kids’ essay drafts and give feedback, but I don’t have time to do it in a timely enough manner for it to be useful. I feel like I’m less effective than I could be with different circumstances and it’s really frustrating.

Maybe I need to recognize that my circumstances aren’t ideal and that I can only do so much in this situation. I don’t do well with having to settle for less than what I know is possible, but maybe I need to do better with adjusting my own expectations of myself and what actually is feasible given my schedule and physical time constraints.

That will be difficult for me. I’m not good with the concept of time – that’s part of having ADHD – and so I don’t always know how much time something is going to take or how I should prioritize my use of time. So I always expect that I can get more done than I ever actually can. Couple that with all of my big ideas and I end up overwhelmed really fast.

I will feel better tomorrow. At least I’ll feel rested hopefully.