I'm stressing out about how I didn't get done what I wanted to get done this weekend. I had to leave school earlier than I usually would (by hours) because the debate tournament started. That meant that I wasn't able to get my weekly planning done on Friday before leaving, which threw me off. Then, … Continue reading October 28: guilt
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October 12: decompression
Some nights feel like all I'm trying to do is decompress from the stress of the day. My mind is going in 12 different directions: I'm thinking about the lesson I screwed up because I hadn't anticipated something, or I'm thinking about how I could have handled a situation better here and there, and I'm … Continue reading October 12: decompression
October 9: Little things, big impact
Today was overall a good day. I had some amazing conversations with my 7th graders about a story we read, and I finally got a kid who is clearly depressed (for lots of good reasons) to genuinely smile and laugh. I am having a good time with my Legends class learning about the "monomyth" and … Continue reading October 9: Little things, big impact
October 8: frustration
No matter what, I can never seem to get ahead. I had an epic grading session over the weekend, but I still ended up staying to work until 6 pm, and I still feel like I'm behind. Just when I feel like I'm getting caught up, I get another email or realize I have another … Continue reading October 8: frustration
October 3: The World is Heavy
I've felt a heaviness, really, since the Ford-Kavanaugh hearing last Thursday, but today it just became overwhelming. I haven't cried like that in a while. I've cried with frustration, cried with anger, cried with exasperation, but today, I was just sad and feeling hopeless. Being a teacher has always been tough because I work with … Continue reading October 3: The World is Heavy
September 18: everything is a struggle
Everything feels like a struggle right now. I haven't given up yet, even though I want to. I ate better today than yesterday. I used some new approaches in my tough classes. I failed a couple times. I succeeded a few times. I struggle when I feel unsure of what I'm doing, and I do … Continue reading September 18: everything is a struggle
September 11: 9/11 as a teacher
One of the most surreal moments today was realizing that almost all of my students were born before September 11, 2001. Before this year, this was true for many, but the older kids had been born before it. Not that it matters - they were only a year or two old in 2001 - but … Continue reading September 11: 9/11 as a teacher
July 23: lists help?
I've been overwhelmed by things that are just always kind of there under the surface, and I was thinking maybe making a list of stuff on my mind would help, but I keep forgetting to make the list. Tonight I remembered just as I was laying down to sleep and hey, I haven't done my … Continue reading July 23: lists help?
March 30: Release
Today I began to realize how anxiety-ridden I have been for so long when my body seemed to release some of it today (that, or I'm getting sick again?). I haven't been able to fully wake up today, I've been a little dizzy when I do get up, and my entire gastrointestinal system is a … Continue reading March 30: Release
Adventures in Distraction 