Nine years ago I was laying in a hospital bed, completely numb from the chest down, exhausted, holding this girl. She was 6 pounds, 6 ounces, which, for my body's ability to carry children, was pretty darn big and I was proud we made it that far. She was supposed to come at the end … Continue reading May 14: my girl is 9. Wow.
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May 12: I don’t even know anymore
Last night, I had the craziest dream. I dreamt I had another baby, a boy. Annika was so excited to have a baby around and immediately asked when I was going to have another one, like it's just a regular thing with me. Anders was super helpful. Annika is so persistent though, that I remember … Continue reading May 12: I don’t even know anymore
May 10: too much
I have too much going on in my brain to focus enough to write anything worth reading, or at least that's how it feels. Everything is heavy. However, I did try a new snack: almond butter granola cups. They were really good and I recommend them wholeheartedly.
May 9: total exhaustion
There are no words for the mental and emotional exhaustion I have right now. I'm wiped out. It's almost a calm place to be, because there is nothing left in the reserves. Sleep would be nice, but I'm not sure that my body and muscles will let me do it. My body is on alert: … Continue reading May 9: total exhaustion
May 6: May Day Festival Day!
I love the May Day parade and festival. I started attending 20 years ago, in college. It was such a free day: great activism, important messages, good people, fun music and dancing... everything about it was great. I remember drumming for hours in a drum circle and dancing in the little lake. Once, I had … Continue reading May 6: May Day Festival Day!
April 26: Packed Schedule!
I love the spring, but I HATE how everyone decides to schedule all the great events in the spring, but also everyone wants to do dentist appointments and doctor appointments and meetings. All the art groups are like SPRING SHOW!! Art-a-Whirl! The debate association has the annual spring meeting. The circus show is coming up! … Continue reading April 26: Packed Schedule!
April 23: I don’t know
Annika saw me setting up to write. She asked me, "what's gonna be the title today?" And I responded, "I don't know." She looked at me for a beat, then looked down at my phone as I typed the title, then laughed. "Really!?" "Yeah." "What are you going to write about that?" "Don't know. Probably … Continue reading April 23: I don’t know
April 18: Internet Creation and Parenting
Annika wants to start her own blog and website. I'm not really sure how to help her do this, since I would want her website to be more private than most of the websites I've used. I'm sure I will be able to find something, but I don't know how I feel about this. When … Continue reading April 18: Internet Creation and Parenting
April 15: Snow and Sick Day
St. Paul cancelled school for tomorrow. Seeing the weather outside, I would say it was a really good choice, because the roads are terrible. I'm still sick with a stupid cold, so I'm staying home tomorrow and having a sub. I'm really disappointed, to be honest, because I don't want to miss a day, but … Continue reading April 15: Snow and Sick Day
April 10: Writing with a Friend
Annika has decided she is going to write with me. She has a sparkly notebook and she wants to write three acrostic poems on a single topic each day. Yesterday, she did animals, and today, she is doing birds. I think it's a great idea... in theory. I want her to get into writing more, … Continue reading April 10: Writing with a Friend
Adventures in Distraction 