Tomorrow we all go back to school. Both of my kids and I are anxious-excited. I never sleep well the night before school starts, so I don't have high hopes for a relaxing night. The only person who saw it as just another night was Dak, who just kind of went about his evening, playing … Continue reading September 3: Labor Day; or, the end of summer
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September 2: Farmers Market and Naps
Today was what a summer day was supposed to feel like: I slept in for a while, got up and went to the farmers market in the rain, took a long afternoon nap, and had a delicious, fresh dinner with family. We played some trivia tonight and went to bed at a relatively reasonable hour. … Continue reading September 2: Farmers Market and Naps
August 26: “the last day”
It's the last day of summer before I go back to work. Technically, the day is over and I have to be there in just a bit over seven hours from now. I should be sleeping, I know. I can never sleep the night before. The first night AFTER starting work, yeah, I can sleep. … Continue reading August 26: “the last day”
August 26: “the last day”
It's the last day of summer before I go back to work. Technically, the day is over and I have to be there in just a bit over seven hours from now. I should be sleeping, I know. I can never sleep the night before. The first night AFTER starting work, yeah, I can sleep. … Continue reading August 26: “the last day”
August 21: What HAPPENED in the world when I was totally self obsessed?
So I've been dreading the test I had this morning for carpal tunnel syndrome for the past day/day-and-a-half and while I've been wallowing in self pity, the world seems to have erupted with news! Paul Manafort is found guilty on 8 counts and can be retried on the other 10. Michael Cohen pleads guilty to … Continue reading August 21: What HAPPENED in the world when I was totally self obsessed?
August 20: Phobias
As long as I can remember, I've been terrified of doctor's needles. Not a little scared, the way I assume most people are, but massively afraid, to the point where it affects my decision making about my health, both medical and dental. I am pretty open with people about my struggles with depression and ADHD, … Continue reading August 20: Phobias
July 30: THE SCHOOL DREAMS HAVE STARTED
They're HEEEEEEERRRREE! Two nights in a row now I've dreamed the back-to-school horror dreams. They usually don't start until mid-August but I am feeling extra anxious this year, so here we go! The first dream was especially weird. In it, I was back at Forest Lake and we were doing all the back-to-school stuff, and … Continue reading July 30: THE SCHOOL DREAMS HAVE STARTED
July 23: lists help?
I've been overwhelmed by things that are just always kind of there under the surface, and I was thinking maybe making a list of stuff on my mind would help, but I keep forgetting to make the list. Tonight I remembered just as I was laying down to sleep and hey, I haven't done my … Continue reading July 23: lists help?
July 18: flashbacks
I was absent-mindedly deleting old podcasts from my phone today, something I don't do very regularly, and I had NPR Politics podcasts from before the 2016 election. Podcasts from when we were so sure we would have our first woman President because who would vote for this asshole? A podcast from his attack on the … Continue reading July 18: flashbacks
July 10: Honestly, I’m Scared
I want to believe that the arc of history bends toward justice. I have believed that people, in general, are good and deserving of compassion. I try not to assume intent when people do stupid or hurtful things; I try to look at the bigger picture and see the circumstances that brought them to that … Continue reading July 10: Honestly, I’m Scared
Adventures in Distraction 