Everything feels like a struggle right now. I haven’t given up yet, even though I want to. I ate better today than yesterday. I used some new approaches in my tough classes. I failed a couple times. I succeeded a few times.

I struggle when I feel unsure of what I’m doing, and I do so much better when I get pep talks and positive feedback. I’m struggling to even write this right now. Each word feels like it doesn’t want to exist on my screen. Each word is taking a long time to come out. It’s pretty weird; typically the flow is there even when the ideas aren’t. Huh.

It’s been over 5 minutes now even though it doesn’t seem like I have 5 minutes worth of content here. I guess this is what it’s like for some of my students. I need to remember and be gentle.