So I finally got paid and since I didn’t do well at losing weight over the summer (I actually gained weight), I signed up for Weight Watchers online plan. I used their program years ago (pre-child) and was able to lose about 25 pounds and generally keep the weight off for a long time. It was actually pretty easy to do last time, so I thought it might be the easiest plan again. I weigh more than I ever have in my life right now. My clothes fit terribly. I feel lethargic and bloaty and uncomfortable. My feet hurt more than ever. I need to readjust my life.

I got the app and started tracking what I have been eating. I EAT JUNK. Seriously, I have gotten into eating so much junk food. It slowly crept up on me – I used to be a lot more careful about eating healthy, but I began to eat some junk, then more junk, and now I eat a diet of pretty much all junk.

Today was difficult. I’m trying to be gentle with myself, since I’m eating the food we have in the house rather than getting a bunch of new food that would be more healthy. As I go shopping, I’ll make better choices.

I had no idea that my basic diet was so bad. I felt like I was doing pretty well, not drinking much soda, drinking a bunch of water every day, eating some fruit every day and veggies most days… but I definitely need to do better. More veggies, more lean protein, more unprocessed food, more fruit, fewer baked foods, and fewer foods with added sugar. I hope that soon I have fewer cravings for the sugar, because today was rough.