I am such a scatterbrained airhead today. I missed my turn for the doctor this morning and sort of got lost (I blame construction). I almost put the cereal away in the fridge. I started getting a sore throat and took a nap, which helped me pull it together for the afternoon/evening, but then I wasn’t paying attention and instead of taking my nighttime medicine, I took my ADHD medicine. A stimulant.

So I’m up still. My throat hurts still, so I’m scared I might actually be getting a cold. And I’m very focused, I guess. I can hear Dak snoring down in the basement. I’m not hopping from idea to idea and website to website. But because the medicine is a stimulant, I will probably have trouble sleeping.

This is only the second time I’ve ever done this. The other time was when I was still on Adderall, which was maybe 5 years ago. That time, I didn’t realize what had happened until the morning, but I was wide awake all night, then had no problem getting up the next day. Adderall does that. It’s very effective that way. I was very effective when I was taking it. Unfortunately, the side effects were too unbearable after a while.

This time, it’s a small dose of shorter acting medicine, so I’ll probably be dropping off around 2 or 3 in the morning, which should give me at least some time to sleep. I could try to go to sleep now, but it would be fitful at best. I should take some ibuprofen or something for my headache and sore throat. Maybe drink some Airborne? Dak swears by the stuff, but I’ve never noticed a difference.

One thing I get worried about on rough days like today is my memory function. Sometimes it feels like I can’t rely on it the way I used to. It isn’t terribly changing my life, but it’s annoying and worrisome. I don’t think there are any tests they can do, really. I worry about TBIs I had when I was younger and how they may be affecting me now. Maybe I just worry too much.

Maybe I’ll turn on a boring movie or podcast. It’s going to be a rough night.

Picture of the night: forget-me-nots. Appropriate flower for today. And bees.