Tonight I really don’t want to be writing. I’ve been thinking about what to write about and then I did some searching on the internet for ideas and literally everything made me think “ugh, I don’t want to write about that.” They aren’t even bad topics, I just don’t want to do it.

So what does that mean? I like to write, but maybe this means I need to be a little better with being graceful when a student just doesn’t want to write? Thing is, I’m still doing it and I’m thinking about this as I’m writing. But maybe there needs to be a grace day in there – like, one day that I won’t count at all toward the grade because we all deserve a grace day? I’m definitely going to think more about that.

Another thing is that my carpal tunnel is acting up really bad and writing requires me to use my hand. My fingers have been really tingly and that makes me not want to write. I did make a doctor appointment to discuss options, because I don’t want to lose feeling in my fingers permanently. I’m really scared.

So to sum up: sometimes this is hard to do and I need to think about what that means in my classroom. And I’m scared of doctors.