I got distracted again tonight and read until now, so while I’m doing my writing, it’s definitely not something I am thinking too hard about this because I’m completely tired. Exhausted. Like to the point of illness.

I wish I could understand why I do this. It’s like I get hooked and I can’t tear myself away from whatever I’m doing until I get so tired I can’t focus. On many occasions tonight, I thought I should quit reading, do the writing, and go to sleep. But I didn’t and it’s almost like I couldn’t. Hyperfocus is a real thing and it can really suck sometimes.