Today we went to Duluth to attend Dak’s aunt’s memorial service. Trudie was a vibrant, fun woman who fought cancer like a champion. We didn’t spend a ton of time with her, but what we did was always happy. She was warm and welcoming to me as a new person in the family, which was comforting because I’m awkward and don’t always know what to say to people I don’t know.

It was a long day and I slept all the way home in the car, and now I’m feeling crappy and can’t get comfortable at all. I’ve been neglecting my health, eating poorly, and my back has been sore. Tonight my heart is fluttering and skipping beats, so I can’t even really lay still.

My brain is jumping all around because of the sad day, the weird eating and sleeping schedule, and all the things going on. This isn’t the best writing of my life because I’m so scattered and uncomfortable. I’ll be better tomorrow.