There are no words for the mental and emotional exhaustion I have right now. I’m wiped out. It’s almost a calm place to be, because there is nothing left in the reserves. Sleep would be nice, but I’m not sure that my body and muscles will let me do it. My body is on alert: tense, sick stress tummy feeling.

I have to focus on good things, maybe, to get the muscles to relax. School is good, for the most part, even though the warm weather has brought out the spring squirrelly behavior. Annika is reading to me from Time Cat, the book I outlined on Monday. We had to go back and read a part again because time travel is kind of tricky to follow, apparently. My back is feeling better, because my brother is a miracle worker (chiropractic). The weather was amazing today.

I know this entry is weak and vague. As a verbal processor, it helps me to write out or talk out my problems and issues. This blog has been helpful for that. It’s all more difficult when those issues I need to talk or write through are not appropriate for public consumption. So I’m sorry for the vague, sad entry. I’m in a rough place.