I am starting to get migraines. A couple years ago, I had my first migraine. It didn’t hurt; it was an ocular migraine, which means that I had my vision disrupted and I felt weird, but that was it. It scared me a lot. I mean, all of a sudden my vision started to look like someone had taken a picture with a flash, but that spot would not go away and then it grew to where I couldn’t really see much. It kept going though, and eventually faded off, leaving me weirded out and strangely tired.

Since then, I’ve had a few migraines that included headaches and light sensitivity. It runs in my family. My mom and sister get migraines, but there’s are much more typical. My auras and feeling weird are the most pronounced parts of my own migraines.

Yesterday I had one of these migraines. It actually started with a kind of weird headache for which I took ibuprofen, which helped. I took Annika to pick out a pair of spring/summer shoes, and at the shoe store is when it hit: full auras, I couldn’t see anything. I had to explain it to Annika so I didn’t look totally weird, and she loved that she was able to help me by explaining what patterns were on the shoes, since I couldn’t really see them. We had to hang out at the stores a little longer than I anticipated, since driving was out of the questions. When were finally able to go home, I felt okay until I got home and looked in the mirror. My pupils were different sizes.

I still felt weird, so I ate dinner and went to lay down. My head didn’t really hurt, but it felt heavy and I felt really strange. The light was a little painful, too. After a little bit, I fell asleep and didn’t wake up for the rest of the night.

So that’s why I’m late with this blog. Like before, I don’t feel guilty because there was nothing I could really do about missing last night. My eyes were messing with me and I just needed to close them. That’s okay. I’m glad I at least knew what was happening at the store, since the first time I freaked out a little. Annika got to be in charge of helping me and that made her feel important, which I love. Overall, it wasn’t too bad, but it did feel a little like a waste of a beautiful evening. Sad.