My throat hurts. I’m tired. I am sniffly and stuffy. I’m not in any shape to think straight or write coherently.

It’s supposed to snow again. Some models are saying a lot. If I wasn’t sick feeling, I might be more upbeat about it, but I feel crappy, so I just want to eat deep fried foods and chocolate. Not even the dark chocolate, where you can pretend it’s kind of good for you if you just eat a little. Kit Kat bars, Reeses Peanut Butter Eggs, and Snickers. All the crappy foods.

I had a good day with almost all of my classes and had a blast helping some 9th grade boys after school – 9th graders are so fun and goofy. Here’s the thing about teaching and about being sick and teaching: one bad encounter sets me off for the rest of the day. I think about how it could have been handled better, how we could have made the situation not happen or not escalate, how I need to go back and face it tomorrow and not just lay in bed under my warm electric blanket and pretend I never have to deal with it again. Almost all of my other interactions today were positive. I have good opportunities to make meaningful connections. Kids are learning. It’s really cool. But that one thing. That’s all that sits and stews in my mind.

Luckily, my brain is shutting down because I’m tired and sick and I just need to not be awake anymore. Hopefully it actually powers all the way down and lets me rest, rather than bringing up negative things just when I start to rest. Hopefully this virus is short and runs its course quickly. I just want to be comfortable and do my job well. That’s all I want. And $350,000. That would be nice too.